This is so painful! I've been suffering for years with no answer. Does anyone know any forum that is open and accepting everyone where I could ask for help? I prefer a group for mystical Christianity (preferably "liberal" catholic or orthodox) that isn't judgemental to some parapsychogical phenomena.
Otherwise I would truly appreciate at least some hugs and empathy because this is something that causes me serious distress and there's nowhere I can get help.