I have had depression pretty much since I started puberty. Some of this was because of gender dysphoria, but it was mostly kind of random. Recently I had an epiphany that I could be aromantic. It would make some sense, but at the same time, I don't know if that's right. I've had genuine romantic feelings once and that person left a lot of emotional scars (I can't hear their name without edging on panic), so my lack of "crushes" could be because of that. But also, at the time I loved that person, I was 11 and very hormonal, so it might not have been romance and just normal pubescent horniness. It doesn't even feel right to say "loved" because they were more like a best friend to me. I don't know this has been on my mind lately