My case is far too complicated. I cannot be helped. But euthanasia isn't legal here either. So I guess I'll have to wait, and do nothing 'till then. That's the closest thing to end my suffering I can ever get to. Just live life as it is. No change, nothing, complete B.Sc, if possible get a job that hires me (definitely not related to science) and live life 'till the day I die. Even this has some plot holes in it, like how was I supposed to get a job without learning how to drive. I don't want to learn anything, as I have lost the will to live. I don't know why I post things like this here, it doesn't make me feel better. It makes me feel worse. Sometimes I cry when I am alone.

I don't know, the best that can be done, I guess, is to wait 'till death takes me. I don't want to take the pain to do anything productive in the meantime. It's just my case, I have to accept it.