I saw my therapist for the last time until the 23rd today. I'm really nervous that I'll have problems while he is gone. I'm doing great and mostly am basing this on last July being really bad. Which was related to decreasing my clozaril last June and since the dose was increased a year ago I've been better and even really good the last several weeks. I've missed some appointments with him lately so I know it should be fine even from experience but I'll just be glad when it is over. My mom is away the same time which is a lot of the anxiety.

I'm really fed up with my pharmacy. To get clozapine refilled a copy of labs has to be sent from the pdoc to the pharmacy. This was done 2 weeks ago and the pharmacy apparently lost it. So my pdoc's office sent it again a week ago. They didn't fill the script and they also didn't call me so I have no idea why. In theory I think the lab can only be a week old when the refill is done but they've never actually enforced that rule before and I can't do anything about their rules when I am not told there is a problem. The first 18 months on clozapine I had few problems with the pharmacy. The last 20 months they keep messing up. I probably will be getting more blood drawn tomorrow at the lab I don't like.

I'm feeling overwhelmed tonight. Hopefully I'll get to sleep soon.