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Originally Posted by amandalouise
no trauma did not negatively affect my intellect/ cognition. in fact it helped it. Because of the trauma I went through I became a dissociative to the most extreme. this ability to dissociate gave me the ability of high concentration/ blocking out distractions, or anything else remotely positively or negatively triggering going on around me. Not to mention for fear of abuse I learned how to memorize/ study and learn things the first time around, my abusers never had to tell or show me something more than once. I was what they called Hyper vigilant, even in a numbed out spaced out frame of mind I was acutely aware when someone was approaching me. teachers move around a classroom a lot. I also had another advantage that came from my extremely traumatic childhood. I had alternate personalities. each of my alters had their own way being, what they could and could not do. that meant the one who did the Math had lots of cognitive skills for math, problem solving and so on. I was "one creative and very smart child with fantastic cognitive abilities when my head was on my work" appeared many times on my school records.
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WOW! Maybe I was dissociating as well! Now I understand why I am so good at tuning things out and having the appearance of calm. I escaped my trauma by blocking out all of the "noise" of the trauma happening. It got to the point that I would literally just sit and turn up the t.v. wait for the violence and fighting to stop and calmly waiting until it was over.