I avoid eye contact, don't make sense while speaking and my social manners are very poor. Couple that with my injury and I get a mixture of memory loss and that. I may be autistic (not sure how to diagnose myself with that) and I am pretty sure autistic people cannot be socially normal. And what am I supposed to do now, if I have to escape from this?

Don't get me wrong, people are nice here. But I cannot be helped, people tell me to "live just like this", they know my situation fully. In my tuition last year nobody took me seriously, everyone just acted like I am a joke. It's gonna be same this year at college. I am a joke, and always will be one. There's no escape, why? Because my brain is programmed in an absurd manner. I am not independent, I cannot fill my forms required for admission in college, I just sign them, while my dad fills out those. You wouldn't want a medical student like that. Let alone a doctor. Yes I know these skills can be learned, but it'll take a long time. I was supposed to learn those skills long ago. Now everyone just laughs at me and those people tell each other how retarded I am.


It hurts me, I used to be brilliant. But my doctors aren't interested in taking me out of this environment, root cause of everything, why should I be? I'll just die.