Try to get your family to help you get a doctor. I needed help because of phones/doctors... Ask someone in your family to come with.

Hopefully they will know a doctor personally that is reasonable. But don't be afraid to switch doctors a few times, but give em a chance.

It will get worse... start to get it fixed.

Until you see a doctor, AVOID jumping into philosophy and religion to see the source or solution... this isn't the time. This isn't something you can "talk" through, its a brain chemistry issue.