What if instead of faking it you lived authentically? You can still find gratitude in the midst of pain by looking at your blessings and choosing to focus on those, for a time. And, you can still experience pain and frustrations. It's ok to have lonely and quiet times. It's ok to have moments of gladness and highs of happy. It's all ok. You are real. You are not fake. I think the Fake it till you make it saying is wonderful and confusing. Choosing what we focus on is living effective. We can't go to work and share our deepest selves...we have to be professional. We don't lay our burdens at the cash register as we buy groceries, as if the checker is our best friend...we use niceties and engage at the level of intimacy the relationship allows. That's not fake. That's effective. You are not alone! You are worthy and cherished! Is there something you usually find pleasure in that you can love yourself with today?