Hello DeadManic: Thanks for sharing your experiences.
I noticed this is your first post, here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral!
I hope you find PC to be of benefit
In addition to the depression forum there is a forum, here of PC, dedicated to the subject of anxiety. Here's a link:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/anxiety-panic-phobias/
One other forum that may be of particular interest to you, given the wide range of techniques you have employed in your efforts to heal, would be the other treatments forum:
https://forums.psychcentral.com/other-treatments/