Heather,

You are absolutely correct, I have been acting as if on a treadmill, actually have been for quite some time now. All I can say in my defense is that staying on the treadmill has taken a great deal of strength and energy. And staying on sure as hell beats falling off. Although, I know the fact that my mental and emotional state interfered with my relationship with my ex girlfriend. It was actually doomed from the start. Furhter, I think had I been stronger she would of reacted to me much more positively. I think that I brought her down and for that I feel absolutely terrible.

OK, OK... I get the point. I will stop being on a treadmill and move forward.....

Thanks for your suport, understanding, gentle nudging and the necessary kicks in the butt.