I called my office and asked how much they charge. They have to get back to me as some of the older records have gone into a storage facility. The person who'd know the cost wasn't there, but I did ask the receptionist to pass along a message that we're in dire straights financially, I had an expensive medical hospitalization & can't work, our only income is from my husband, who teaches high school, and they certainly do not pay teachers much, but enough that we make too much money for me to get disability; however, I felt it was important to get the old info before my old pdoc fully retired. (Sigh...so many people retiring lately. My 2 favorite librarians retired as well, one already, the other next month.) Sucks. I asked if anything can be done to help out on the cost, please would they do it. My message is supposed to be passed along and they said hopefully, I will hear back tomorrow.

The good thing (I guess?) is that hubby seems to realize this stuff is extremely private to me without even telling me. He said I should be the one to go through it and note significant events in his system, which he will show me. He claimed not to have the time to do it and that he would likely not understand it, but I think really, he realized I was uncomfortable with the thought of him going through the stuff, that it's almost like reading a diary or something to me. I do think it would be helpful. I was on so many medications in the past, plus my pdoc I had for 10 years is retiring, but when I first met with her, I remembered more clearly things about past hospitalizations and diagnoses, stuff that happened when I was in college & graduate school, and she may have been able to procure some stuff from the county health care system I used while in graduate school. I made so little money in grad school, I could not opt in to get health insurance if I wanted to have a place to live anywhere near the university that was semi-safe (though not totally as I was an unintended gunshot victim there, probably because though the place was gated, the gates were always left open and often broken for months).

So...we'll see. I'd like to have it, if I can afford it.