Aaaaaaugh couch I just found out that the therapist I've been assigned at this new program I have to do for the next year is none other than the dude who did my intake. I HATE THIS DUDE. After spending an hour with me he told me that I have borderline personality disorder. To which I said, "but I don't meet the DSM V criteria? And none of my other psych providers have ever suggested to me that I might have that diagnosis?" And he was totally uninterested in my thoughts on the matter, was 100% sure of himself--not even curious about why I might disagree with him. (I have a special hatred for people who don't have even the slightest bit of healthy skepticism regarding their own thoughts and ideas. It's not that I dislike confidence, it's that I abhor people who won't even entertain the possibility that they might be wrong.)

Also he's an MSW but the secretary that works in his office calls him Dr. so-and-so which makes me hate him even more--it's pretty ballsy to go by "doctor" if you don't have a PhD or an MD. (I am 100% sure he doesn't--I looked him up on LinkedIn/PubMed.)

I don't know what to do. He emailed me saying he'd been assigned to be my therapist. There was no, like, "how does that sound to you?" in the email, it was just a statement of how things were going to be. And since it's a program that has a lot of folks with personality disorders, they're probably suuuuuper effing rigid about boundaries and will be like "nope sorry you have to stick with the one you've got." (And also I'm afraid that asking them to reassign me will put me in the category of "demanding" or "controlling" and then they'll *really* feel certain that I have BPD.)

Why is it so freaking hard to find a psych care team that isn't sick or out of the country or abhorrent????