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Originally Posted by annielovesbacon
(sui tw)
I have been in an extreme depressive episode for the past few weeks, I've been having the most intense suicidal thoughts I've had in a long time. But what I don't get is that I'm doing everything "right" to combat the depression. I'm exercising, eating healthy, showering every day, not isolating myself, writing... but I still feel f--king AWFUL. I just have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to ***.
And I'm just so frustrated because there's not even anything in my behavior to change to fix this, I'm using all my coping mechanisms but I still feel like I'm in hell
Sorry just needed to vent
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I know there is nothing I could say that will mean much because I have not walked iin your shoes . But several years ago when the beast had me and in shear desperation I stumbled upon an interest ( does not matter what ) ... I let my attention fall on this new item and it gave me a reason to hang on ... I know it sounds silly but nothing close to me meant anything ... not even family ... but this ( new and different ) interest brought me out when every maxed out pill I was on would not ... What it might be for you ... I have no idea ... and maybe it is just my obsessive mind set ... but it has keep me out of that dreadful place ... just don't give up .. your salvation may just be around the next corner ... peace to you ... remember the tigger loves you ...