I am better tonight.
I have taken my vitamins consistently for a few days.

Have been eating at my health food store for lunch at sandras.

Ate with bill and mike today. Had a leisurely lunch, it was nice to have small talk with people more my age and not just 80-90's. Don't get me wrong, I love my job but really hated eating alone for lunch. Bill and mike eat at the singles area there are 4 seats open for grab. I will sit at one of them when I am not eating with my lunch bunch. I have not had lunch with paula in weeks. something always comes up.
I wish I could be better friends with her but that is not happening sorry to say.
My weight is 180.5....jeff is fasting the next 2 days. I should fast with him...except I need to eat 350 calories to take my geodon/meds at noon.
I am going to shoot for 500 calories for the days.
I finally had an alcohol free day today. Decided that my tolerance was so high that I did not need all of those extra calories.

In the evening after dinner I went to the shoe station and bought 2 pairs of shoes on sale. Then went to planet fitness and walked on the tred mill for 34 minutes. Used the hydro bed for 10 minutes.
I feel more in control.
I feel better, not depressed.

Need to get up early in the morning to take a shower. I have been busy with work seeing 5 clients every day starting at 8;30am and working every saturday till I get caught up from our vacation.
Thank you for your support.
bizi