I have another probation problem. Today, I just received my probation evaluation. I feel so disappointed with the result.

There are three points in the evaluation: absence, performance, and attitude. I excelled in the absence, so I won't discuss it any further. For the attitude, I admit that I have some flaws... 1) I often forget to call the upper management with Mr. or Mrs. (yes, it's my bad. I'll change it.) and 2) an incident with a pervert manager from other division. 3) I have bad anger management. I'm still working on it.

What make me so disappointed was the performance result. I'm lack of initiative contribution (the contribution outside my jobdesk and working time) which is true and I'm going to improve it. Later... they said that I'm quick, but the job outputs are poor. I admit my works are not perfect. Some are poor, but not all. Some are good and they satisfied with them. It's sad when they highlighted only the bad parts. Well, they mentioned one good work too. Just one from the dozens.

Moreover, they said that I need detailed briefing. To be honest, I don't see the bad part with it. I often see the undetailed briefs lead to incomplete and bad result. It wastes so much time... which I could spend on other projects.

In conclusion, they keep me because they need me, but not as permanent employee. They extended my probation period. If I could improve my work performance, they would promote me to the permanent staff. If not, they are going to cut me out.

It makes me feel so down and disappointed. I would understand it if they consider to promote me because of my attitude. But no... they emphasised it is because of my 'poor' performance. In my previous job and internship, I got the good scores. In fact, my colleagues surprised with the result when I talked to them about it. They said I am hardworker and there are a few co-workers worse than me.

On the other hand, I suspect them too. So, the company I'm working on has terrible management. The coworkers are nice, but not the HR nor BOD themselves. I suspect that the decision is because they don't want to raise my payment. I'm paid standard and with the promotion, I would be paid higher than standard (Actually, I don't really mind the payment as long as they pay me fairly). My suspicion is based on the fact that I'm not the only one in the company who suffer this fate. A few colleagues suffer uncertain status.

I don't know what to do or react. I don't plan to resign because I stayed 6 months in my past job. If I quit too soon, I'll damage my cv and portfolio further. Besides, I like my coworkers.

I'm sorry if it's too long. Maybe hugs or insights will help. Support or criticism. Opinions or whatever.