I don’t know — honestly, at this point, I wish my therapist hadn’t told me some things that she did.

Things I didn’t ask about but she let slip — stuff about her relationships with her parents, husband and kids. It wasn’t terribly new — I’d intuited a fair bit already but having it actually spoken out loud by her, kinda hit me in the gut.

It’s really made me wonder where she is herself emotionally and I’m still (after weeks) finding it incredibly destabilizing to have that information and my interpretation of it but not to be able to talk about it in any way with her, short of saying “I think you have a whole bunch of unresolved issues that are showing up in my therapy. Please work on fixing them”.

Sigh.

At the same time, yeah, I get the anger on not having a simple question answered. I just think knowing what I know now and further seeing how I tend to emotionally react to disclosures (and pick up on all sorts of clues), I’d so much rather pick a total blank slate therapist.