I feel empty ever since I gave in my medical dream. I wanted to be a doctor, I am still half-heartily trying to. But deep in my mind I have a fear that I will never get into medical college. It was just a few days ago ever since I said "Screw that" to my life, now I am feeling so much empty and I don't find joy in anything now.


My parents still abuse me (I am 17) and the only way to get out of this toxic environment is to live in a respected hostel with respected students, which is possible only with medical college. I am left very numb, confused of what to do.