I fake it every day, most of the day. I have to blend who I am, with who I want to be. I sometimes wonder if anyone sees through this brave front I put on (I hope not). The contrast is do I want others to know how depressed I am? Can they handle someone with ongoing depression? Would I be told the depression will go away if I only ? did such and such? Would others be supportive, or tell me unhelpful things? Would I regret letting my secret out?