Your pretty much exactly where I where I am right now, other than I dont go to school right now. Im guessing you werent diagnosed with anything, but you are starting to realize that something is wrong with you. Im the same with that too, I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago bt I know I have psychosis but I just havent been diagnosed yet, because I havent been to a doctor. I try to hide my problems most the time but its not working out too well.

I think you should probably tell your family about some of it and go see a doctor or counselor or something.