Just felt I wanted to vent I guess. Tonight Im feeling depressed because I have been doing so much thinking about my plans that I feel drained, just mentally exhausted. Another thing I realize is that I spend WAY too much time in my home, keeping me like a prisoner who cannot escape. And the saddest thing is I think my husband likes this kind of control. That is the first time I have ever thought of that....so enlightening. And I will give an example of what I am talking about here. After I had my son four years ago, my husband was the worker outside the home and I stayed at home with my son. I did not have a car, we could not afford one, so I could not leave to go anywhere during the day at all, outside the house I guess but that is it. After a few years of this and almost having a nervous breakdown, I found a way to buy a used car in May. In October my husband wrecked his car and started using mine instead of fixing his car, it was going to cost some money. So here we are in February now and I still do not have my car back!!! AND... like clockwork Im so bad with my anxiety and depression and get out of the house only once a week to visit my mom and have dinner with her. It is sad I know, but I now realize one of my biggest triggers for depression and need to change it. Well, I just wanted to get my feelings out and I am going to try to get out of the house at leased two times a week, that will be my first goal!! Anyway.... Thank you all again for your kind words, they help so much!