With the help of my counselor I wrote the letter to my girls acknowledging how they've been impacted by my illness, apologizing, and asking for forgiveness. Sent it before my vacation on the 26th.

Haven't gotten a response.

The youngest daughter did allow her kids to stay with us for a couple of nights. I sent her a text saying thank you and sent some photos. No response.

I was out of the country on her birthday so I sent her an email. No response.

I called my oldest daughter asking to tell my two year old grand daughter happy birthday. She said "no, I will pass it on."

This TOTALLY pissed off my husband and he called her. She said she's done and hung up on him.

He keeps telling me I've done everything I need to do and they have to make some steps and realize the two of us are a package.

I just don't know if this is ever going to get better and don't even know if it's worth it to keep putting everyone, including my husband, through this.

I know ya'll must be tired of hearing me go on and on about this but it constatnly weighs on my mind.

My therapist is awesome. I'm going to see her. She's been with her husband at the doctor all day and is working me in after hours.

SIGH