Mouse - yea i dunno. i think crano hit on it - that whole survival of the fittest thing; those who are weak get eaten or killed off. that whole kid thing was interesting too - adults even teach kids to pay attention and give kind words when another kid is hurting, scared, or upset. but somehow "adults" are not supposed to behave in the same way. I, too, learned that in youth group - when i was depressed as a young teen, my youth leader tried to help. but when i was depressed as a young adult, i was ignored by her unless i made myself appear chipper and say everyting was fine. I learned adults cannot be honest with their feelings and still be accepted.
now i have a hard time telling even my t when i'm not doing well. she even asked me to call if i got to an unsafe place tonight (which I did - but the SI group really helped me) and i still couldn't tell t.
it is like society thinks it is contagious to be down and/or suicidal - and maybe it is. maybe that IS the fear. I read a statistic that something like 30,000 ppl attempt every year and 10,000 actually succeed. I mean that is a huge, astronomical number of ppl. maybe it is taboo because if we looked at it, society would have to do something about it - like change the status quo and look at how our society really does ruin people's lives.
((((((((((mouse)))))))))) hope you are doing ok!
Kiya