I talked to my therapist over the phone. Normally I'd have a full session but I couldn't get up to go into town today. A mix of plain exhaustion because I can't sleep and just the overwhelming feeling of "why bother". I told him what my pdoc's office told me. He said he's going to talk to the pdoc that works with his office about finding an RTC. I also told him about the **** that's getting worse and happening more often. My T gets that I don't want to go to the ER and he doesn't want me to if it can be helped. He talks with this guy tomorrow morning, I guess. So we'll see what happens.