Oh boy have I! My family (where a lot of my trauma comes from) seems to think I have no reason to think or behave the way I do (or simply doesn't understand me). One of them doesn't even want to address the past. He thinks we should just move on and leave it. Which is so damaging because it robs of the chance to acknowledge the pain and heal.

It's interesting because one of my family members has an Associate's in Social Work. She's considering getting her Bachelor's because she has a scholarship. However, when she heard about my c-ptsd and family fears she couldn't, at first understand how I could feel the way I do. It had to be explained to her. Considering her chosen career field I think she may want to work on understanding other's suffering!

One of my abusers thinks I'm selfish for wanting change and to be treated like I'm an adult with my own life. I reached out to an old friend, and (without overwhelming you by writing a thesis on the history behind our friendship lol) this abuser thinks my friend is influencing me and that she and I must be sleeping together (which has NEVER and will NEVER happen lol). I MUST be wrong in her mind. There just has to be some crazy explanation.

I'm learning that she is a narcissist so that explains a lot about her. I'm handling it by reminding myself that we ALL need to deal with our trauma and brokenness in this family. That means them too. I cannot do it for them. It's okay to care about myself and seek safety. I also lean on my faith in Christ and that helps SO much.