Dear Forum,

I come from a religious background. Of course, I won't say which one. My folks never hit me over the head with it, however I outgrew it and left it. It's a small point of contention with my conservative dad, (and I a liberal) but that's not the point.

This religion teaches to be charitable and loving, although I never saw any examples of that in my own church, to be honest.

I recently came across a spiritual website that says we are called to serve, any kind of service. Because of my background, this resonates with me. I always felt I was here to help people. I am in my late 40's. I haven't gotten into any jobs that help others. I wasn't qualified. I have done a little bit of service but not much--a day at a soup kitchen, a food closet, a thrift store, tutoring kids, etc. I never stick with it long. I get bored. I have depression so that doesn't help. They say do something you like, but I don't have anything I like to do. Sad, but it's the truth. The site says to set a "rhythmn of service" but I don't know how to do that. I feel quilty that I haven't dedicated my life to service. I resist because I don't want to do extra work on top of my job (I work 30 hours), plus it's hard to get service organizations on the phone and coordinate when to help. I am not qualified to do much as I have no skills, plus why should I help when nobody ever helped me? Also, my environment doesn't encourage service, nobody in this country ever talks about service. Nobody. Even religious people. It's the truth. Any nonjudgmental feedback would be great. Please no name calling or criticism. Thanks