I can relate a lot. I know I wasn’t the easiest person to be with but I didn’t deserve the dishonesty and lies and fakery. The make believe that everything is fine when meanwhile they are just slowly moving away. I should have saw the signs but I was too blinded by love. I was too old fashioned in thinking that the vows really meant something. I was so blind to it all. No communication. Just excommunicated from my own marriage.
Don’t think I could ever trust anyone again. People act like your such a burden and they are no problem to you at all. What a bunch of self righteous bull****.
Best learn how to fend for yourself. When you get abandoned by everyone you thought loved you at least you’ll be able to carry on and maybe get lucky in the future. If not I’ll know how to live with myself, and like it.