I'm copying the question from my group as I only received one answer there.

Why when I tried meditation and chakra work I began feeling demons at night? My mental state deteoriated quickly and I got very nervous and depressed, I got suicidal for no apparent reason. This was at the time when I was happiest in my life, there was absolutely no external reason to develop such issues.

I've become totally scared of meditation and even seeing "motivational and positive" quotes and pictures makes me anxious and triggered. Reading them is some kind of strange self harm ritual.

I don't understand why meditation was so harmful to me. Maybe it was because of my suppressed CPTSD and trauma? Or is it truly demonic? I do believe in demons.

Maybe I'll try it some day but right now I'm too scared. Meditation seems too dangerous, especially when talking about chakras is involved.

Everyone says how meditation is cool, even my therapist recommended it a couple of times. It's supposed to be healthy and helpful and someone with anxiety like me should practise it. But to me, even "safe place" meditation seems too scary. To me it feels I'm giving up all control and opening myself to weird unknown influences who might possess me.

Right now I'm only interested in hearing various experiences and tips about this issue, not sure if I actually want to practise this. Just looking for theoretical info at the moment.