first thing, you have very good syntax. better than mine and im a brit.

second. i guess i am a nihilist myself sometimes. it does suck awesomely. i find myself pretending im not so as to not demoralise others, then i wonder what the hell. it is depressing. never was cool for me just the way i turned out. i guess an understanding of the wider world that many kids dont have doesnt help either. oh well. call me depressing, doesnt matter much.
tis a shame that u feel so crap, i know how u feel. for the last few days i have been considering ejecting myself from the totally pointless reality. only to be brought back from that 'stupid' idea bu other people when they realise. i am not one to abandon people who need help. to be honest. so i do try help people even when it looks damn pointless. which is most of the time really, but yeah. gotta try for others eh?
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