Hmm today I don't feel as depressed. I wouldn't say I am feeling super motivated, but a little better. It's also nice to not be raging as much. Still having some violent thoughts towards myself, but not as urgent or impulsive so I don't feel so unsafe. I hope this is a sign my moods are stabilizing and improving, but kind of worried I am just going to cycle around again. Guess all I can do is hold on for the ride haha.