Wow! Love all y'all's responses. I guess I was just not wanting it be true. I had been DX'd BP2 8 years ago but as mentioned, the DX was changed to BP1 1.5 years ago. I know I can get super excitable and I'll start talking fast, over the top responses, and thinking I'm the smartest person alive! LOL Then I crash and burn and the depression hits along with the extreme OCD. Right now my mood is between the two simultaneously (I know that sounds weird). There is no cycle right now. Of course they added Cymbalta back in which scares the living shite out of me since it can trigger a manic episode in me but the depression was overwhelming me with not being on an AD. Thanks for your insight and own personal stories! :yourock