Hi Gracey,

It sounds like the day of meetings was a good experience for both of you!!!

All of us who have gotten sober have pasts that aren't so lovely to rehash. Sometimes its painful to go back there. Our experiences help others though, who want what we have. I've share some pretty gnarly stuff with others who have asked me, or during the course of conversation. I always think "I'm not gonna talk about this or that" but inevitably, it comes out when I'm talking to others in recovery. Things have even come out with people not in recovery, but curious about it.

I always feel better after I share stuff with others. Especially with those in recovery. Am I codependant on others in recovery? You bet I am. Its others who have struggled with addiction who "get me". When I'm struggling, I look to them first.

Just the other day I was craving a case of beer. Not so much craving like I was miserable and gonna run out and get it, but I was thinking it would be nice to drink a case of beer. I hadn't been to a meeting in a week and the more I miss meetings, the more I miss drinking.

I came on here and ratted myself out to Chalmette in pm. I don't know how many pm's I sent her. I ended up calling my sponsor and she didn't answer so I called my best friend in recovery and she talked me down.

Codependant, sure. But I don't necessarily see it as a bad thing to depend on others in recovery to help me when I'm goin outta my mind. Thats why we call it a fellowship in recovery. Alcoholics/addicts helping other alcoholics/addicts.

I didn't want to admit that I had gotten myself into such a squirley place, but I did and I'm so glad I did, because I didn't pick up a drink.

Sounds like the situation was a win-win. You got to a meeting and so did Jon. No harm in that right?

Take care of you and I hope find an apartment soon. Congrats on the job!!!


Rayna