[Possible Trigger]

Not sure if this should be here or in the "panic/phobia" section.
I've been on the verge of a panic attack all day, and it's worse now. I am having extreme anxiety because I want to off myself, but can't bring myself to do it.

Last night I was on an extreme "high" at the thought of ending my unsatisfying, earthly life. Now, I am having extreme anxiety because I can't bring myself to go through with it. Grrr!