Thank you both. Yes, I won't do it. I tried doing even the harmless guided meditation from yt videos. No spirituality there, I was careful. Just breathing or safe place kind of thing. I waited about 7-8 years between my spiritual and then "psychologically safe" meditation (what I mean I did chakras at the age of 18 and then "safe" meditation a couple of times at 25-29). Even after safe ones, I felt OK during the meditation but I got bad afterwards, I was irritated, I argued with people and generally didn't feel well.
I was wondering why this is, if there's some kind of problem with me or what the explanation might be.