There's no need to be sorry... what result you would expect anyway from parents who were

1) Related closely before marriage
2) Mom was born to my grandmother when she was 14-15 (grandmother had child marriage)
3) Father who was born to a construction site worker, they didn't have money for day-to-day life.
4) Threw their infantile child on a wall
5) Put their child into a low-fee pre-primary school because they didn't "have money".
6) Fought over non-existent reasons in front of their child.
7) Abused the child, beating him and scaring him till he vomits... for a government job of course. Justifies.
8) Then isolated the child from rest of the society. So he wouldn't be a bad person when he grows up, and would happily be a class one officer.
9) Didn't let friends come home, whoever their child could possibly befriend, despite being a freak.
10) Didn't teach the child life skills such as riding bicycles and interacting with others.

Honestly, things are this bad. I am talking about the physical pain of insight now. It hurts physically that my health is not good.