I'm sorry I was away for a bit.. I needed to take a break. I appreciate all the supportive posts. I means allot to have people who support me. I think I've taken many things away from your posts, but that I can see God around me, to know he will seek for me, and that to find peace even when he doesnt feel near. Many of you express confusion or that you have had similar questiosn. I appreciate that.
Thank you,
ev