I have realized this morning it's just going to take some time, this grieving the loss of my relationship with ex-t. She is absolutely right to not respond to my email from last weekend wherein I told her I'd call about the sand tray pictures. (I'd also told her I'd had the talk with my mom that she'd encouraged me to have.) Its like I can't fully process the loss of the relationship until I get the pictures because right now they are a reason to contact her if that makes any sense. I dunno. I just know that I am missing the relationship but can't fully grieve that loss until it fully is one? After I get the pics.