Any really good therapist is seeing a therapist her or himself. One can't do the type of work you're doing & not have somewhere to process it all. The alternative is, to my mind at least, a likely quick & dramatic burnout. I don't know if you're seeing a counselor or therapist at the present time or, if you are, if you're able to talk about this stuff. But I think it will be really important for you to do so... especially if you have designs on becoming a therapist yourself one day.

Here's a link to a YouTube video, by family therapist Kati Morton, where Kati talks about the importance of therapists seeing therapists themselves: