Wow, BrnEyedGrl, this is one area that gets my passions up at arms. It won't be popular, but my advice is to get out. Get out now. Please do find a women's shelter/resource center and make your case known. Volunteer there if it helps you get comfortable more easily.

Your husband will not change. He wants control of you but cannot control himself. It's no way to live for either you or your son and I want to encourage you to take charge of your own life. Your women's resource center is full of useful information on how to plan and execute a safe departure and organize a future. They have volunteers from many walks of life and can offer assistance in any number of areas.

Please take steps to protect yourself, not only emotionally, but physically and financially as well. Foremost, take control of your situation back into your hands and give your innocent son a chance at a secure, loving life.

I'll pray for you, kiddo, I know it's not easy and it is frightening, but you and your son are worth it!