It's five years since diagnosis, I'm stable, I've done great in therapy, but...
relationship with extended family and friends are difficult. I slip away from everyone. One reason is that I don't feel loved, I see only black and white, I exagerate. Other is - if I'm either manic or depressed it's hard to keep my house clean and tidy and I'm ashamed to invite anyone.
I've had a lot of toxic people around and I'm slipping away from these relationships intentionally, but then I'm left with loneliness and depression. Is there a way out of this cycle?