I understand completely, I really do. My first round here at PC I made a very similar post involving the abuse with my husband: verbal and physical. He was very cruel to me at the time and I felt completely trapped..with two children, and no outside support willing to take me and my kids in. It's a very lonely and hopeless situation, it's especially hard when a child is involved.

It's taken years for me to gain the strength to twist this situation around. I'm educated now, this helps my case when my husband attempts to insult my intelligence. He may be wiser with years but now I'm educated. He's stopped calling me "stupid" the past year. The physical abuse stopped when I had a 6'5 sheriff come into my house and threaten to beat the living %#@&#! out of him next time he put his hands on me....he was obviously scared because he hasn't touched me since.

Luckily something came over me the last year and a half and I gained control over this situation....but still, I don't have the means to just walk away from this marriage...I'm still trapped too. It's sooooo hard to leave everything you had gained together, to leave the father of your children, the comfort of his income, the security of things you had become accustom too...even the bull %#@&#!.

I'm not going to tell you to LEAVE or GET OUT...because you won't till your absolutely ready too. You may never...like me. What my advice is to you is to gain some kind of lee way, a comfort and back up..something. Go to college, get an on-line job, do something for yourself. You'll gain confidence this way no matter what he says.

(((brneyedgirl)))