I go on Monday I just have a lot of anxiety and confusion going on because i dont know how i could reserch it if 1 not sure what its called so i cant reserch it to undeerstand it so i can cope. and 2 i wont be able to explain my exsperiances with it if i never even knew i did it lol i dont know and the info i will be giving my theripist isnt even from me its what my boyfriend said i was doing ..... we wouldnt lieto me about this though so for everyones saftey including my own i have to take his word for it and get help