I've felt the same with my mom. Despite our very rocky relationship when I was younger and her being partly responsible for why I am the way I am, we've gotten along much better since I've been on my own and I've been more open with her about things like my real feelings. Sometimes it makes her cry. It makes me feel bad that I've made her cry, but at the same time I'm tired of hiding how I feel. I don't have the will to lie anymore.