Thank you both. I won't do this any time soon. I feel too vulnerable and unsafe meditating. And I'm absolutely scared of doing rituals (don't worry, I have nothing personal against witchcraft, in fact I quite like paganism and wicca. I did some reading on it in the past and went to Wiccan forum. So it's not judgemental, just seems very dangerous to me but I have no problem if others find it helpful) I just wanted to hear opinions about why this happened to me.