Oh I see. I get that now. Yes, that kind of prayer did help me in the past. (again, not allowed to write about it here :-( )

I think there truly are some demons involved as well as trauma. I went through a LOT... From civil war in my childhood, another bombing of my country when I was 12 although I was at the safe place at the time, alcoholic father, bullying, emotional abandonment, health issues... It was all buried inside. I'm also an empath and at the time I discovered things about animal cruelty and factory farming. It seemed that I felt the pain of whole planet, both people and nature. I couldn't stand that. I absolutely broke down and couldn't stop crying.