Thank you, healing. I need to better nourish my soul. You've given me an idea of how to do that. My electronic "device" can open up all kinds of treasure in poem, song, etc. I could better take advantage of that. I used to love to read beautiful things. I actually have time to do that.

My bf and I have a long history together that did include a great deal of turmoil. I stayed connected to him because the good times seemed more important than the hurtful times. He is very brave in facing what he's going through - grateful for every day of life. He doesn't feel sorry for himself or get depressed. Much about him is very endearing. My attitude at times is awful. I know you weren't telling me your experience to compete in the sorrow dept. I didn't take it that way. I took it as showing what people manage to get through. It is understandable that I feel depleted at times. But I don't really believe that this is beyond what I can cope with. His family has been being very nice and keeping in touch. For all these years we were never close, but now they are trying like I've not seen them do before. I would do well to let go of some hard feelings over the past. I tend to brood. It 's best to move on and live in the present. I guess I'll have my weak moments. They don't have to dominate how I feel. They can be transient.