My T is supposed to be away from the 1st of august till the 27th which will be our longest break, but overall break number 4 in 19 months.

Maybe I'm just bitter right now, but I feel T's should take more responsibility for their clients especially for those who are stupidly attached often with childhood trauma and abuse. It's not the same as a doctor going away for them. By all means T's should take holiday time but just make sure that they put a safety net in place whilst they're gone. Arrange another T to cover, go over a safety plan, just in case numbers or would it really kill them to set some time reaching out to said clients at a specific time who after all did help to pay for this wonderful holiday?

I don't feel like my T listened to my concerns and fears about him going away, despite us making a deal that he would have a plan in place for me the next time he went away in lieu of me not acting out. But in our last session he said he felt my request for a plan was a cause to rally behind and felt meaningless to him and an excuse to be unhappy. He asked what I wanted previously- I said email contact, but would have settled for a single letter. Emphasis was placed on him being on a break- his needs coming first not mine.

When he first announced this holiday he told me that he normally just went away and that was that. That his other clients usually were okay with it as that's when they went away too. He said that I was a "special case", if I'm so special why won't he take better care?

If handled badly I think breaks do nothing more than just emphasis previous old wounds.