I'm having a major self-hatred spiral this afternoon I can't seem to pull myself out of. I f'd up royally. I know I f'd up, I totally admit it, and feel terrible, and h is just rubbing salt in the wound as per his usual. Y'know how I was in that car accident when I was on my trip, the guy rear-ended me on the highway, well I reported it and filled out the paperwork at the rental place and filed a claim with the other guy's insurance since it was his fault, and then tried to not worry about it and tried to get over the being afraid of driving thing so I could get myself to work and back and I guess I did too good at not thinking about it because I forgot to call the car rental place this past week to make sure they got the vehicle back. OMG I am so stupid!!!!! How could I not be responsible and check up on that?! Especially after I got back home late Wednesday night, I should have called Thursday. I was just lamenting about this to h earlier and he said and I quote "Well I tried to talk you out of renting the car in the first place." Thereby implying that this is all MY FAULT for renting the car. How could I have been so stupid to not call and check up on the car rental place to make sure they got the vehicle back? Of course on the weekend I can't get ahold of anyone on the phone back there. I tried. I just want to cry and fall through a hole in the ground. I'm a stupid, dumb, crazy ****ing idiot who can't handle life and I guess I better find a new t because i'm obviously not to be trusted with anything at all by myself out here in the wild.


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