idk Mouse. I finally had the nerve to mention suicidal thoughts to my T after nearly a year. I was too ashamed about it. She just gently said "This is the place to talk about those kinds of things."

Still I can hardly do it. It's the kind of thing, like self injury, that I will call and tell her on the phone but can't bring to session any other way.

Shame about so many things runs so deep...