thanks for sharing LT and this in particular: Me: "So OK the other thing with p-doc is...this probably seems so silly. But, it will be the first time since I've terminated with ex-MC that I'll be turning into that parking lot (she's in a different building in same complex). And I know, you're right across the street, so it's not like I haven't passed the parking lot and building. But I'm still afraid that turning into it will affect me." T: "That's not silly. LT, loss doesn't have a timeline." Me: "OK, thanks. You mean like grieving a death?" T: "Yes, like that, random things can make you think of the person or feel sad. It's normal." Me: "OK, that makes me feel better" (also thinking, "Good, he finally seems to be classifying leaving ex-MC as a loss, with me grieving it.")
I needed to read this as I'm still processing the loss of my relationship with ex-t. It's been a little more than 3 weeks since we said goodbye, and it's coming out in weird ways. Like last Sunday I sent her that email asking about my sand tray pictures, but not mentioning the car accident at all, and only later realizing I sent it actually because I wanted to feel the comfort of connecting with her, because I'm still processing not having her in my life anymore. I think I'm going to start my own thread for said processing.
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