If all of these emotions are felt simultaneously, It sounds like a mixed episode. If they are felt in succession, and especially, as a result of what's going on around you, it sounds like co-morbid BPD. Dissociation can occur in both BP and BPD. I would ask your pdoc about this and your other co-morbid conditions and see if they're playing a role if at all. What you're going through sounds hellish, so I wish you the best. Take good care!